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3/30/10- It is impossible for me to know who I really am. My mind is constantly changing and my subconscious pulls at my conscious mind, feeding it realizations and habit. Not only will I never be able to understand my thoughts to their full extent, but also I can’t even experience my physical appearance as I truly am. When I look at myself in the mirror, I don’t see myself. I see a reflection of light reflecting off of myself. The image itself isn’t even real, it’s an inverted representation of what others see when they look at me. One could argue that a picture of myself would display my physical appearance, but once again I disagree. A picture will never stay current. By the time I take the picture and look at it, I am no longer the same person that is on the digital screen of my camera. Not only is it processed data that I am looking at, but even if it looks just like me it freezes me in time unnaturally. It doesn’t reflect my change in emotion or new realizations that I have made. I will never be able to view myself and fully understand who I am, but others view me much better. They don’t have the benefit of seeing inside of my head, but they can view my true physical self and watch my actions without knowing the motives. Other people can observe me much better than I can observe myself.

4/1/10- Showers are a powerful force in altering human emotions. They can create a false calm, even in the most tumultuous weeks of stress and homework. They create a safe haven and make you feel like you are in a soundproof box. You can sing at the top of your lungs and not worry about what you sound like. They feel wonderful and comforting when the water is warm, reminiscent of a warm bed, or lying out in the sun. Regardless of the season, they can always warm your body and put a smile on your face. Afterwards, you feel cleansed and fear of all worries. In contrast, a cold shower can have the exact opposite effect. You are instant alert… and angry. You try to get out as quickly as possible: no singing, no lollygagging. The cold chills you to the bone and can ruin any mood, but you stay because you have an obligation to society to smell nice and look clean. These contrasting ideas display the power of temperature on the human psyche. When one is warm, he is comfortable and feels safe. He will express himself freely without the fear of others hearing him. The cold brings embitterment, but an intense alertness. Temperature has an incredibly prominent effect on the human mind, and most people don’t realize it.