Attempting to achieve nothingness. I close my eyes and analyze.

Nothing was impossibility for a moment. My imagination fills the blank spaces, words run through my head, I couldn’t achieve the nothingness that I was supposed to be examining which made me frantic which stopped me from achieving nothingness, etc. I could feel every vibration and eventually covered my ears. With my ears covered the darkness took on a new depth. Vibrations ceased and all I could feel was the omnipresence of the darkness and the deep noise, like that of a cave with no walls. The nothingness was basically pounding and made me feel contained within a chamber. Then another feeling hit me as I realized that within the nothingness I was still able to see, but all I could see was darkness. I attempted to look further into the darkness and actually be aware of the entirety of nothing, rather than the closed feeling. Nothing is not a penalty or something that holds you back, but an open free expanse that goes on infinitely. The nothingness was solitude from stress and from problems, though most feel it causes loneliness it does not. Nothing leads to a better consciousness of the self because you realize what doesn’t exist. When everything is lost, you realize what you’re missing.