do re mi

2/16/10-Lately my mind is not responding the way it is supposed to in response to advertisements and posters. For example, I saw an ad that read,” Book a night with FAME at one of our hotels.” Of course, I was not totally paying attention and read it in parts, but I interpreted the poster much different. I thought that it was advertising somebody named FAME reading one book a night at such and such hotel. I quickly realized this makes no sense, but it frightens me that I would even see that to begin with. This is not the only example though, as it has been happening to me quite often. I feel like I no longer fit into a normal mindset and I’m misconstruing messages. So far, it has not deterred my normal functioning, but it still worries me that it may cause trouble later. What if I misinterpret a text from a friend or a question on a test? Hopefully my strange method of thinking does not prove detrimental in the near future.

2/18/10-Whenever I’m in enclosed spaces, especially movie theaters, where I can’t see the outside world it makes me feel so small. I realize that there is a whole world outside of the walls that enclose me. There are billions of people out there all with their own lives and homes. When I’m indoors I realize how compartmentalized the world is. I’m separated from such a huge majority of the population, and I will always be separated from them. I will only ever know a very small portion of humans, and I will live without so many potential influences. Essentially, I live in my own little bubble of a world, my own personal version of this Earth. How I see things and what I see all depend on myself, and cannot be compared to any other person or creature capable of observation. I will never experience the whole world, or all of its inhabitants, but I can try to experience as much as I can in life and expand my bubble through travel and friendships.